One of my new years resolution is to blog more...I've tried to sit down and type some smart exclusive blog.. haven't managed to do so.I can blog about how wise I am and how I have the key to success. But I cant.
I am in a state of questioning everything, experiencing things, healing and understanding. I am in a very fragile state of being. We are programed since small to question ourselves, to be strong and take the punches life gives us, we are programed to slightly love our people, to settle with what we have, we are programed to know what love is but not experience it to the fullest extent.We are programmed to pursue happiness, to never cry, to not show our true feelings, to never breakdown, to never feel pain.
We were programmed to just survived, whats beyond surviving? We don't know.We refuse to open our eyes and look at ourselves and ask " am I satisfied with the life I'm living?"
From a distance we are programmed to admire what others dare to do, to dare smile and laugh. We are programmed to look in the mirror and still find errors in the image that smiles back in hope of acceptance and love.
We are programmed to just survive..what's beyond it?
That is what I am trying to find out.